Thanks Rick! An interesting reframe of my worldly concept of “cruelty”! And yes! That concept of contrast is so apparent here…! After reflecting again at your contrast article, it really had me thinking, pondering on what I don’t have, and what I do actually want to have! So again, I came up with a another list to reflect upon! (Feels like I’ve done this before when I met you, Rick, but it’s always worth gaining greater clarity in this!)
I used to be…, I want to/would like more of…
I used to be ignored, brushed aside of my accomplishments, unappreciated of my progress, talent and my ability to grow from my music, I would like more recognition, more positive attention, more appreciation of my progress, and the respect of where I’ve grown to be
I used to ignored for my struggle, I want more respectful recognition of how far I’ve fought my way to survive, and thrive on planet earth in a dysfunctional family environment
I was told that I shouldn’t be so selfish of wanting more respect, love and compassion, I want to be able to know that I’m not being selfish for wanting things that takes care of me.
I used to see sex as a perverted act and it will always result in trouble and chaos, I would like more safety in how sex should be viewed in my space, and honoring females as unique sexual beings, simply for who they are, rather than because of their body shape and size
And @Angelsloveyou, thank you so much for those words. And yes, now I can start to learn to not push away those feelings of longing for connection and belonging. Because I suppose that’s what makes us unique human beings with a heart and a soul! 